i can't stop spending my money
Last night I started rewatching Sex and the City, my favorite tv series of all time. If you haven't watched Sex and the City, all you really need to know is that it's about this group of 30-40 year old women who all are trying to find love in New York City circa early 2000s. The main character, and narrator, Carrie Bradshaw, has a ridiculous spending habit though. Mostly on shoes and vintage clothing. There's literally a line in the first season where she says "I walked forty-eight blocks in four-hundred-dollar shoes."
I was thinking about that on my morning walk. If I lived in New York City, would I be spending my money on vintage dresses and designer shoes? I mean, I already spend a lot of my money on clothing right now -- and it's not like I'm making a lot of money (hello, minimum wage job!)
The answer -- yes, probably. It led me to asking another question, though. Am I shopping to avoid my problems? When I learned my ex boyfriend was lowkey stalking me and spreading shit about me, one of my first thoughts was 'I should go indulge in some retail therapy,' which, probably isn't all that healthy.
My answer to that question is also yes. I like to shop till I drop to avoid my problems. There's nothing I love more than shopping until my wallet is crying, begging me to stop, and I don't have enough money for gas. And I've gotten pretty good at shopping, I can usually spot out something vintage when I see it. The tags only reaffirm my beliefs.
Online shopping is good too, but it's too expensive for my tastes. Recently, though, I did buy OGBFF's FLOP ERA t shirt. One of the members of F5ve wore it and I've been eyeing it for a while.
There's probably no way to fix this. I wish I had a solution - having a shopping addiction as a college student is ... problematic, to say the least. But I can't stop spending my money.